=)

Ang galing galing.
I'm learning soo much.
Thank you Lord.
The reasons behind the past challenges are slowly taking form.

=)

"Remain in my love. So that my joy may be yours and your joy may be complete"

I've been in a roller coaster of emotions.

Lots of things are happening.

I've had lots of reflecting and conversing with people.

I've been having weird dreams.

Even if sometimes, I feel confused, agitated or empty...
I find peace in knowing I am loved by Him and I'm
blessed with all the people around me that help me understand
that my life is meaningful.

Thank you for the gift of life. =)
Thank you for the grace of love and light.

hay. hehe may ADD rin ata ako. =p
I catch myself thinking from one thought to another.
Ang sakit sa ulo.

I've had weird vivid dreams recently.
I'm not in analyze mode now so I didn't
try to understand it. I just think it might be
related to the mix of emotions I've been feeling
recently which I may be suppressing in my subconscious.

Prayer really helps.
I think I'm starting to worry again.
Natataranta nanaman ako. Tsk
This cannot be.
Nothing happpens when I am in panic mode.

I should relax.
But at the same time stay alert and focused.

Note to self:
Don't get too excited about thinking of the future
When you should be doing something in the present.
I hate what ifs. I appreciate what now.

Tabula Rasa [but before that I need to release]

I will start anew.

I promise to work hard and do my best.
I will focus and prioritize.
I will not let emotions particularly excitement and confusion
control my actions or rather make me catatonic.

I need to move.

I do not want to overanalyze but I do not
want to just go with the flow.

I need lots of reflection and discernment.

I will plan. Then execute.

I'll try to be open but not misleading.

Do not entertain what if moments I can't do anything about.

I need to save.

I should clean up.

I will start. ;)

some notes I've taken down =p

I'm trying to organize my stuff.
I found some notes I took down during insightful encounters.

from the Reflections of my PGTB unitmates on the Way of the Cross
- difference of being joyful and being happy (Andoy)
One becomes joyful when he decides to carry his cross. Even if it could be painful, you are at peace.

- the story of the Velveteen rabbit (Joy)
There is beauty in being worn out. One nice song, she can relate with is "Drive" by Incubus.

-the strength of women (Aivs)
Women have inner strength. Even if they may weep or cry, they endure many things for love..a good example is a mother's love. We look after another.

-the love of God is so great (Maits)

- fear and hope - nice fitting song: "Tomorrow" by U2

Notes from talk of Fr. Manoling in the Lenten Recollection at MTQ
Jn: "It is finished"
Lk. "Into your hands...
Mk & Mt.: "Eloi, Eloi..." - "Lord, why have you forsaken me?
In pain, but in full trust.

In the bible, it says that if someone hits you on one cheek, turn and give the other cheek. This does not mean that you should let people abuse you. According to Fr. Manoling, when you turn the other cheek it means that you stop the humiliation done unto you. Imagine this, if for example someone slaps you (and in olden times slaps are done using the opposite side of your palm, the one with the knuckles touches the face) and you turn the other cheek, he can't slap you again because if he does, he won't be using his knuckles anymore. [hehe mukhang magulo but it's something like that]

Anyways, I have to do lots of work already. I just wanted to write down some notes I've stumbled upon so that I won't forget it because I think it's good to learn these things and to share insights. =p